Crazy

You scream with all your might last night at him

And take a vow you would never turn back to him

Next day, it rains heavily when he is out

And with no second thought

You call him to check out If he has his rain coat

What do you call it?

My Holland Recipe

 
When I became a full time home maker, for the first time this is what i described myself

(One spoon of health + 2 tbs of laziness + 1 tbs of cooking + a pinch of personal time) – (2 tbs of confidence+2 tbs of mood swing+ a full spatula of devilish thoughts working on the devil’s mind)

Over the time, the recipe was lot more better with little spice of working from home option garnished with a touch on painting and spiritual incline.

And after the arrival of my second darling Harini,  the health factor and personal time has taken the reverse gear and there is no room for laziness. So you can see what remains. Well, the positive side could be that there is no room in the mind for any kind of thought except her feeding time, potty time, sleep time and the remaining time goes in  frequent reminding of every possible task to Navneeth. So, the devil factor is also out!

On the whole, being busy this way was also not all that bad compared to what I felt as soon as I left my job.

But now, in the Holland, the recipe is really really worse..

Morning = One spoon of cooking+2 spoons of cleaning + one spoon of laundry and dishes

Afternoon=one spoon of playing with Harini ending up with 2 spoons of cleaning

Evening = 2 spoons of pickup service + one spoon of cooking+ quarter spoon of study accompanied by one spoon of altercations with Navneeth

Night=one spoon of dishwashing +one spoon of cleaning and the bonus is half a spoon of FB and blogging.

Well, there are so many nice things about the place to learn and enjoy but for now I think the recipe remains unaltered. Let us see how it goes…

Miss you dear...

I can hear the next door bell ringing, footsteps in the neighborhood; I hear the voice of other people in the apartment. What is wrong? Looks strange for a mom with 2 kids..Is it not?

There is pin drop silence around me with my little girl sleeping next to me. Slowly I get up, feeling good and peaceful for the first ten minutes. I make my coffee sit in the couch relaxing with legs stretched. Is this not heavenly?

I get up clean the mess around the house and in half an hour I feel strange..lonely perhaps?

Yes dear, I am missing you…I miss screaming at you every ten minutes for annoying me..and you getting annoyed in turn..

What is cleaning ,without me screaming at you..””Navneeth, how many times I tell you….””and before I finish I get the reply “”ok MOM””…

What is having lunch without saying ””You are never going to change…If you eat so slow…””and I don’t have to complete…I get the reply  ÖK Mom’

I missed your little silly way to keep your lil sister engaged when I have my bath or busy in the kitchen..

I missed you when I had to open the lift in one hand while handling your little sisters’, gymnastics in the pram with the other hand.

I missed you when I had to open the apartment doors with the keys, again with your gymnastics sister..,

I missed screaming at you for watching the television serial in Dutch about which you had no clue of what is happening!!

Everything around me is incomplete and there is no flavor without you around..Its not just me ..its also you lil sister feeling the emptiness but unable to express..

It is 2:30 and I am all set to pick you up from the school darling ….

With enlightened spirit, I hug you and ask you how was your first day at the new school and you made my day with the answer “”Excellent..i loved it””

What more? Back again, let me pep up myself with all that I missed before you are off to school tomorrow!