I can hear
the next door bell ringing, footsteps in the neighborhood; I hear the voice of
other people in the apartment. What is wrong? Looks strange for a mom with 2
kids..Is it not?
There is
pin drop silence around me with my little girl sleeping next to me. Slowly I get
up, feeling good and peaceful for the first ten minutes. I make my coffee sit
in the couch relaxing with legs stretched. Is this not heavenly?
I get up
clean the mess around the house and in half an hour I feel strange..lonely
perhaps?
Yes dear, I
am missing you…I miss screaming at you every ten minutes for annoying me..and
you getting annoyed in turn..
What is
cleaning ,without me screaming at you..””Navneeth, how many times I tell you….””and
before I finish I get the reply “”ok MOM””…
What is
having lunch without saying ””You are never going to change…If you eat so slow…””and
I don’t have to complete…I get the reply
ÖK Mom’
I missed
your little silly way to keep your lil sister engaged when I have my bath or
busy in the kitchen..
I missed
you when I had to open the lift in one hand while handling your little sisters’,
gymnastics in the pram with the other hand.
I missed
you when I had to open the apartment doors with the keys, again with your
gymnastics sister..,
I missed
screaming at you for watching the television serial in Dutch about which you
had no clue of what is happening!!
Everything
around me is incomplete and there is no flavor without you around..Its not just
me ..its also you lil sister feeling the emptiness but unable to express..
It is 2:30
and I am all set to pick you up from the school darling ….
With
enlightened spirit, I hug you and ask you how was your first day at the new
school and you made my day with the answer “”Excellent..i loved it””
What more?
Back again, let me pep up myself with all that I missed before you are off to
school tomorrow!
We used to hate when school reopens after every summer holidays during childhood...I guess we hate even more now during motherhood :))) As you said that instant running towards you, clinging, hugging, missing and kissing when we pick them from school.....really makes each day more memorable. But trust me, he is growing, learning and having fun outside. Exploring his whole new world.
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